i feel better actually, but there are intervals i just feel so fuckedup and upset. about you, and all the emotions you made me go through. i dont know. you say you love me. sure you do. but actions? now we're going to cut off all connections for like idk? months? whats going to happen within those months? am i going to meet someone new and fall in love with that person? you too? are you going to lose feelings for me and then hurt me even more and make me realise that all of this isnt worth it and break my heart all over again? guys are so capable of breaking a girls' heart. i dont know what to say when people ask about you. it just sucks.
i miss the feeling of being entirely happy without any reason of being sad.
fuck this shit, i need new things. i hate the world sometimes, and the sometimes is currently now. no one is free for me everyone is busy and im just like here going all THE FUCK.. because no one cares and no one makes time for me? no one has the "i am busy but o well guess i can take out some time to meet my friend for awhile?" i always do, and give in to all of you. but i guess all of you just dont know. i hope i go to poly and meet nicer people that appreciates what i do for them because it seems like all of you dont.
mother fuckers. go to hell.
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